Cutter had hoped that Connor was about to lean in and kiss him, especially once his hand was coming closer ... he remembered all those times Connor had pulled him into a kiss and his heart leapt and then he realised what Connor was saying.

"Oh," he deflated, his eyes downcast, "I ... I miss you though, I miss ... us," he sounded pleading but he didn't try to lean in and kiss Connor again. He was aware enough to realise that Connor wasn't interested in kissing him and it hurt but he did understand.